" Figuring out Me "

Hi Everyone!

Man oh man, its been a minute, but it feels good to be inspired artistically and just open to create again. It took me a while to grasp motherhood but I'm learning and growing everyday. So much has happened since I've last blogged. I mean, to be honest with you, I wasn't inspired at all. I was in a funk, pretty much the whole year. Ya know, I was just trying to get it together after having a baby. It was very difficult for me mentally. I needed to just step away for a moment and figure out what I wanted out of life as well as what made me happy. I had to figure out who the heck this new woman was. Right when you think you have all the answers, you realize you actually don't. Funny how that seems to always happen lol. For the moms out there who are maybe going through an identity crisis and maybe uncomfortable in their own skin I am here to encourage you to hang on tight! Just know that whatever you're going through, in your journey, is always going to be ok. Don't go against the grain as I did for so long, embrace change. Keeping in the forefront of your mind that through every struggle a blessing is sure to come up! I have been creating some amazing things and I have to say it feels great but is also a little tough at times because I have the baby. Happy to be back and anxious to inspire those around me ! I'm not letting anything get in my way and even if you don't have a child, I encourage you to have the same attitude. 

On this day, Peace and I decided we wanted to do a photo shoot at this cool temple in Malibu,California , sadly it was closed :( Being the optimistic person I am, I decided to stop at the beach on the way back to the city! Peace has never been and I was so anxious to see her reaction to the sand, water, and animals! Malibu is a great beach, very clean, I always see dolphins and wales which is the reason a sista only dips her feet in lol! I was wearing my super cool pants from Durban, South Africa that had a zipper in the front like a built in fanny pack! Love love these pants!  Peace was dressed in her cute little  dress from Mexico ( Thanks Tìo Ralph) we were all cultured lol! Being that I have been traveling a lot for work, I like to buy really cool clothes for Peace and I, I'm thinking about making a memory box for her filled with all the shirts I buy her from each city/state/country ! I've always wanted to travel so its a treat for me to be able to bring stuff back!!!! Enjoy our beach moment and thanks for visiting :) 

Photography By : Chris Paul Thompson

Family Fun

Quick trip with my family :) Most important people :)  

FeeLove Merch Now Available!!!!

I am so so so excited about finally launching FeeLove Merchandise! I have been working on this for about a year and to see it finally happen makes me so happy! I love everyone who supports my Positvity/ healthy living/ mommy/ beauty movement! Words can't describe the amount of gratitude I have to those who inspire me to keep posting and tell me I help them with my relatability! 

In the Shop section of FeeLove, you will see lifestyle things that I use day to day. Things that are me and my genuine lifestyle. I didn't want to sell you guys products that didn't fit me so I made sure I stayed true to myself! ​

This first item we are releasing is the " mommy and me" #Positive Vibes Only Tee. This is a saying I've been using for a while now and I wanted to start with this because I love how inviting it is to all things GOOD! Making it known before you approach, " miss me with the negative vibes". The most important part is that the message is on the baby shirt! Sometimes as parents we can get caught up in day to day struggles and that quick glance at your little ones T might change your whole mood. A friendly reminder to be optimistic. As they say, our children are our biggest teachers so let's keep that in mind! ​

Peace and I have both put in so much work with this collection and I am thankful for the strength to fight for it until it finally came to life. Finding designers to create my vision was a hassle, I've never ran a retail store before so I had to learn a lot! Now that everything is set in stone I'm just grateful ! Share with a friend! Please! Hashtag #FeeLove #PositiveVibesOnly also so we can see what you're working with!  

Thank you for all your support again!  

Xo- Fee & Peace-Marie ... 

Vegan Beer & Food Festival 2015

Vegan Beer and Food Festival 2015 was a hit! As you all know I am a newly vegan and I love the community. It naturally brings in healthy fun people with big smiles ready to drink unlimited beer. All of my friends bought the $80 VIP ticket and by the time I went to purchase mine they sold out BUT it was ok. My ticket was $50 which comes with unlimited pours of beer as the VIP does. The only difference literally was VIP has private restrooms. I saved $30 and still did everything with them. There are a big amount of food vendors as wells beer vendors. Oh and the grass at the Rose Bowl is GORGEOUS so bringing a blanket to sit and vibe out to the music was one of my favorite parts! I snagged a few pics before we stuffed our faces and I'll @ each of the places we received the food from and what the item is below! Enjoy!!!!

 Bling Bling dumplings @blingdumplings Had these yummy veggie dumplings served on a bed of spinach, SO GOOD!!!

I Love brussel sprouts and these hit the spot! Fried Brussel Sprouts with a very light pesto sauce drizzled on top! Yumm ! @Therabbitholeoffical Rabbit Hole Cafe 

When I became vegan the #1 thing I missed were chicken wings in buffalo sauce! Welp that was quickly taken care of when I realized that vegan places offer buffalo cauliflower. It helps satisfy that craving.. ahhh my mouth is watering just typing this. These were so good! Mohawk Bend @MohawkLA  

This little fella was a "burger" from Real Food Daily @officalRFD . It was pretty good, made out of Beets, lentil, and mushrooms. It had a sauce on it which I think needed to be added a little more being that the bread is thick it needed more moisture. Oh and it was topped with arugala & caramelized onions! 

This one was probably my friends favorite! Mac & Cheese  Grilled cheese! Yum and the tater tots on the side were such a good touch to balance out the cheese! This was from The Grilled Cheese Truck @grlldcheesetruk 

The inside of the sandwich!!! 

Ice Cream lovers!!!!! This was a coconut vegan ice cream its is VERY CREAMY so if you love creamy ice cream than this is right up your alley! Kind Kreme @KindKreme

VEGAN CRONUT!!! Now this little thing was SINFUL lol !!! SOOOOOOO good ! perfect texture and perfect amount of sweetness!!!! I recommend everyone getting one of these little ones on the way out ! Organic Vegan Bakery 

I hope this guide  is helpful! I wasn't too big on reviewing the beer because at one point they all tasted the same lol Oopps! Can't wait to go back next year!

Xoxo - Fee 

Perseverance ... In ALL You Do !

Well well well, 

This is a topic that I have been working with in my own life and I realize its a necessity to reach the goals you want out of life. Perseverance in my relationships, being a mother, the best one I can be at that. Perseverance in getting back into shape and eating healthy, perseverance in yoga and fighting though the poses. Perseverance means to keep going, through whatever it is you're fighting through, keep fighting and win the battle of your mind. Everything you're going through is temporary and once you realize that in your mind, it makes it a bit easier to hang on tight through the ride. Life gets hard for us all but how are you perceiving it? Do things that make you happy to get you through a rough season and thank the creator in advance for getting you through tough times. 

Peace & Blessings

Xo- Fee ....

New Makeup Work!

I've been working with a new artist by the name of Natalie La Rose ! Seriously she is the cutest thing ever! I am blessed to work with a group of talented amazing people!!! Her hit song is out NOW called " Somebody" Ft- Jermih !!!! Go buy on iTunes now !!! All makeup work done by me ! :) Enjoy!!! 

Check out their incredible performance!

New Makeup Work

I know this segment helped a lot of women and I am glad I was able to be apart of it. We did a really simple makeup look on Karrueche. Beautiful girl, she doesn't need much at all ...  

New Makeup Work

Here we are again with my girl Jhenè enjoy :) simple makeup look we did here. No distractions.  

Don't ever forget about YOU!

This is a message for anyone and everyone. It can relate to someone in a relationship, someone with children, anyone who LOVES. I had a wake up call from God the other day and I couldn't have asked for a better wake up call. My life right now is very different than what it was a year ago. It is very calm and sometimes that calmness can be confusing. I am 24 years old and have done a lot with my life but now that it is calm I noticed myself investing my energy into everything BUT myself. My daughter, fiancé, blog followers, everyone but me. Hmmmm, now how is it that I forgot about me? Somewhere along the way, idk where, well I'm guessing when I took on the roll as a mother I forgot about myself. Now, this is a common mistake a lot of us woman do and the reason I said I am so thankful is because I was able to catch it quickly and make a change. Life is a lot about balance. It is a lot about working on yourself so that you can operate at your highest potential as well as love people better and help people. There is no possible way to fully help others before yourself. Someone once told me this great analogy;

" If you're in an airplane and the plane is going down, are you going to put on your daughters mask first or yours?" My response was " hers!" In my mind I'm like " duhhhh". She said " No, you would put on your own first  because what help are you if you your daughter survives and you don't? Who's going to take care of her? you have to help yourself so that you can help her." 

That was so powerful, something I never let go of. We go through things in life and I am a believer in having faith and looking at every situation as a positive even if it seems like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. Never love someone more than you love yourself, when doing so, you rely on that person to keep you happy and if they disappoint you or are no longer around your world is crushed. Don't give anyone or anything that much power over your emotions. 

I made a decision to steal back me. All of me until I am ready. I want to give and operate at my highest potential and nothing less. If I am able to do this, I am way more creative, I have more to give, I can hear Gods voice clearly, I am in control of my own happiness and will never let someone else have the driver seat besides myself. When you love yourself, the universe will love you right back and you will see beautiful things come to fruition . " Do YOU boo." :) 

Xo - Fee

New Makeup Work

This is so amazing to me! I love working with miss Jhene I say it all the time because damn it I mean it! Lol ! We did a super natural look here, no lashes, just a pure look! Enjoy and remember to look at the good things:)  

xoxo - Fee

Happy Easter

I love being able to have fun with Baby Peace on holidays! Dressing her up makes me so happy! I've always loved being really creative so having a daughter helps me tap into my fun little girl side! Such a joy! Such a blessing! Happy Easter from us both!  

Xoxo- Fee  

DIY: Glitter Vase

If you know me, you know I love to do arts and crafts and can get real creative when in my zone. This is a project for anyone! The impatient mom who is waiting to hit 40weeks ( put a mask on. ) Or even the mom who has some down time while the little one naps. I mean, you don't even really have to have kids I just recommend this for moms because its a way for us to be able to have a little fun moment to ourselves. Make this with your girlfriends or even for your desk at work, the list goes on! Click play and lets get started. 

*P.s

A few things in the video I want you to know:

- I used 2 layers of spray paint, the first layer I let dry for about a minute before applying the second layer. Keep in mind, holding the spray paint far away from Mason Jar will help it have even coats without dripping spots. 

- I worked fast when putting on the glue so that it didn't dry before applying the glitter. 

- I let the glitter/glue dry for about 30 minutes before putting flowers inside. 

Products:

(I purchased everything from Joan's Art store)

* Kyrlon- Metallic Spray Paint

* Mason Jar (Large size)

* Mod Podge (Glossy)

* Gold Glitter ( Any brand, I like the the thicker pieces of glitter)

* Paint Brush

* Fresh Flowers :) 

Enjoy!!! 

Xoxo- Fee

( Leave comments on my instagram to let me know what you think as well as put in requests for more cool DIY) 

The Power of Affirmations !!!

I've learned this several years ago and as of recently I have finally applied it to myself. Wanting change in my life, I have to make sure I am constantly adding new rituals to my daily routine to fulfill those desires. I hope this helps someone out there :) 

Xo- Fee 

My Vegan Journey ....

veg·an

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noun

1. a person who does not eat or use animal products.

Peace of Mind for Moms

Peace of mind for a mom :

As a mother, a new mother, peace of mind and balance is probably one of the things I am personally struggling with until today. I'm sure other moms feel the same way I feel, like the only one trying to find balance/quiet time. 

My little family just moved into a new home and I'm loving it! Work is kind of slow but I use that as an opportunity to create other things in my life which build towards the future. Also using this as time to spend with Peace. Recently I became a vegan ( which I will be sharing in a separate post) but I went vegan to tap into a higher power of myself within myself. I was seeking clarity. Clarity for steps towards my future but proper, diligent steps. 

With that being said, I notice my life shifting, everything is shifting. It is sometimes really crazy to think about but I know it is for a great reason. Not only are the people in my life shifting, but work and my aspirations are shifting drastically. I am extremely creative, which is a blessing and a curse. Sometimes too creative that it drives me crazy lol. With all of these shifts going on in my life I started to feel a bit loopy(crazy). I frantically organized the house today and finished unpacking the last couple of boxes so that I could get the vibes going within the new house. 

Oh yea, I forgot to mention, Peace is teething so finding balance seemed almost impossible lol. Like I was saying, I organized the house, lite my candles and nag Champa and told myself to listen to the voice that kept telling me "meditate, be still, don't be hard on yourself, meditate." 

As a mother, it's hard for us to get that quiet time and the chance to turn everything off. So as soon as I put Peace to bed, I turned off the lights quickly and turned on my meditation music and sat in the vibe for 20 minutes. Man oh man, what a weight off my shoulders. Just feeling calm and at Peace. 

I say all of this to encourage us mothers to make sure we are taking care of ourselves. Make sure we make quiet time for ourselves so we can be better parents and we can also have patience for our little ones. Being the best person we can be. Not even the best mother because before we were mothers we were people, our own individual and we can't forget that. We have to make that person so powerful. The world will break you down but God made us women for a reason. We are the back bone. So keep in mind mamas, take time for yourself and turn everything off. Treat yourself to the gift of stillness.


Peace and Blessings
Xoxo- Fee

Russell Madness Movie Screening ....

Peace and I recently attended the private screening of "Russell Madness" at FOX Studios!!!! We were able to meet a very talented monkey and dog which were both stars of the movie. One thing I love about the film is the fact that they show the power of loyalty and strength within a family unit. They show unity and teamwork. I think the world is going to really like this movie and I do recommend parents watching this with their kids/family :) You can actually purchase the movie below;

Russell Madness  

Check out this little video we created at the pre-screening event :) 

New Makeup Work: " Post To Be " Jhené Aiko, Omarion & Chris Brown!

I'm always thankful to be able to work with Miss Jhené for her projects!!! Here is some new work that was just released this week :) Enjoy !

Xoxo -

Fee 

Product Review: Lily-Jade (Diaper bag)

Recently I received an amazing handbag/diaper bag! Meet Lily-Jade! There are several things I love about this bag!

Ok so to start out, I am not a big purse/diaper bag person, BUT I love the fact that Peace and I can share this bag together and still be in style. Helping me save space and not have to bring two bags everywhere we go. That gets annoying ugh lol .... Ok moving on, the POCKETS! Whenever I look for a diaper bag I always look for pockets! This bag is super cool because it has this whole insert that clips in and out of the bag that is filled with pockets. There are at least a dozen pockets on the whole bag, I love it! Great to use for little things so that literally everything in your bag has its place. I use the front portion for my stuff and Peace gets the inside! Oh, did I mention it comes with a handy changing pad? Bomb.Com !!! Thank you so much Lily-Jade ! I recommend this bag to anyone with a baby or soon to be mamas. The quality of the bag is fantastic! Very heavy duty and will last you a while. If you ever want to use it for a purse or carry on bag you have the option of converting it into a  purse just for you mom! 

Click the Link for purchase and the inside of the bag :) Lily-Jade.Com